monster
n.— «My mother, who i do not smoke around, has been here and she doesnt even know why Im coughing. She found i smoke years ago but she doesnt know the symptoms enough to see the monster in her son. And I dont have that heart to tell her why. She leaves tomorrow. No hospital imprisonment, no parental shame, just me and my monster.» —“6 days after surgery, struggling” by tempslave@hotmail.com Usenet: alt.support.stop-smoking June 29, 1998. (source: Double-Tongued Dictionary)