white-knuckling
n.— «In London, she was, in drug parlance, “white-knuckling”: clinging to sobriety without changing her life. » —“When the party’s over” by Janice Turner Times (London, United Kingdom) July 7, 2007. (source: Double-Tongued Dictionary)
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